Her message, may i know who you are?
Yesterday, i sent an sms to her to wish her all the best for her debate on saturday. She replied, " thanks a lot! May i know who u a?" does she really know me? has she ever missed me? i doubt that. When i sms to her, like last times, i didn't expect she reply back. This time she did, and she replied very well, just one question is enough to break my heart. I can't believe she would answer that. well, maybe i am just her friend, a forgetable friend, or a friend who she never considered as a friend.
Loving a person far away from is hard business, now i understand that..
One more week, then it's time to go home..
I have one more week staying in Singapore before leaving for my home, Phnom Penh. Remember, three years ago, the first time i came to singapore, a friend, from south-africa (he insists that he is south-african although he was born in india), told me that i was very homesick. I don't understand the word "homesick". At that time, i felt nothing more than to live, study, and play in singapore, i didn't really miss anyone at home. Maybe, my look told him that i'm homesick. Sometimes, i do really miss the feeling, the joy, the people, and the friends at home. But, what can i do beside missing? after all, i didn't get anything else, but sad, and imaginative feeling. The self-recognized south-african friend is two years younger than me. He has been travelling almost half of the world, which is very great and it is also what people dream.
Phnom Penh, my hometown, is a city of the histirical strong & imfluential empire of Cambodia. Phnom Penh couldn't be compared to any other city because it has its uniqueness. My town has been through many incredible or unbelievable events. First, it was just a town, then, it became the place where the kings stayed, then it was a town again when the kings moved to stay in other place, after many of fighting the king moved back to stayed in Phnom Penh. Untill, Phnom Penh provided shelter for the French, who controlled the country 90 years without loss much. After the French went home, the town sudently became the so-called "Second Paris" or the "Peace Island". Unluckily, the war burned its beautiful name, and changed it to "Ghost City", what a horrible name. But, the name revealed the true of it. Ghost City was really a Ghost City, no people living, had corpse, and like hell people died everyday. Then, after the revolution, it changed its name again to Empty City. Everything was empty, no school, no clean water, no electricity, and no nothing. At the moment, its image has been improved both good and bad. The thing to celebrate is the person in charge of it won the prize of the best city, what a good things to breath. I dont' know what name will Phnom Penh be changed again. Would it good or bad is just a matter of tossing a coin. I miss home!
wondering....
I am a wondering person. There are many things i dont' understand, or if i do, i'm wondering how it works. Let's look into the demostration case in Cambodia.
How come Cambodian people like the idea to strike in order to deliver their messenge? i'm wondering why. If the garmen workers are not happy with the owners, they definately going on strike. If the teachers are not happy with the gov't, strike would be a usual solution. If people are not happy with the official, strike! If a party doesnt like the way gov't do, they strike to voice out.
I'm wondering whether those people know the pros or cons of demonstration. And, i'm wondering is strike the only way to solve problems? Strike, as far as i know, is a threat. It is used to threat the other party to accept the terms and conditions they have set. But, strike doesn't work for most of the time. In contrast, it creates negative or disadvantage to the strikers. what ppl gain from strike? a waste of time, energy, and risk their life for unimportant issues, let alone the public stability.
Well, the reason that ppl going on strike is because they couldn't negotiate to get what they want. I'm wondering why don't ppl take the times and energy to discuss and improve their negotiation skill instead of strike. why not try to get ppl into the talk, discuss and debate. After all, we are a demoncracy country. Demoncracy means talking, discussing, debating and re-talking, re-discussing, re-debating before going on physical strike. On part of that, negotiation skill is the way to get things done, not strike. what garmen factory workers gain if they get the owners accept what they ask by striking? would the owners happy and want to work with them? would the owners consider the other option of shifting their work to a safer place with no strike at all? i think so.
Unemployment in Cambodia
A current released data published in local newspaper showed that in one year 8,000 graduated students in cambodia are unemployed. If that is the case, i might be one of those unemployed student when i graduate next year. it sounds like so scary, and if i couldn't find a work, my four years in University would be a waste. doesnt' it mean i would be better off if I chose not to study in university and worked immediately after graduate from high school.
If i am one of that 8,000 unemployed student, what would i do? I want to be a good citizen, yet could i if my stomach is empty? So, who will help me not to fall into unemployment trap? the gov't or myself? It is so obviouse that i couldnt live on my parents' pocket. Somewhere, in the future, people would live depend on my pockets. That's the future. What's about now? how can i jump off the trap? If i want to depend on myself, how could i do it? by learning new skills, but for what? creating a my own business, where is the start-up capital and how to see over the cloudy future? The last choice for the graduated student is to be a farmer. Farmer?? sound so funny? why the hell i'm going to be a farmer if i know nothing much about it? for the case of countryside students they feel more unhappy since they had made a decision not to be a farmer when they came to study in university. The worse case is where to farm. Where are the land gone? why couldn't I, as a person, own a free land? And, how come the land now become precious stone? what shall i do?
Like most people, Sam, one of my friends told me that he doesn't want to be the person in the picture nor receive any support from anyone. He wants to live on his feet, but he needs external help for he is living in a community. So, the community must know how to live on it feet first before he, a little boy coming to the real world, can survive, learn, and grow.
My only hope now is to pray that the next unemployment statistics would look better. Hopefully, all graduated students would be employed when it release.
